[He likes to call people on their shit but hates it when that gets turned back on him. So he half sullenly glares back at his brother, because could he just fucking drop something for once in his life.]
[ no, he can't let this go. especially when yance starts talking like that. not only does it makes him frustrated, but it's also pretty problematic for reasons involving their really dangerous job. ]
That's even more reason to have it out. What if a kaiju attacks and you're still upset?
[Only-- yeah, that would not work out well. The affair with Naomi taught them that, that they can't harbor secrets and hope it won't come out in the Drift because it almost always will just because of the sheer fact that he hopes it won't. Like determinedly not thinking about it makes him think about it and that shows it to Raleigh and just--fuck.
[ raleigh actually takes a step back at those words. he doesn't realize it, his mind's too busy trying to process what yancy's just told him, but he does. and everything about him screams shocked.
yancy and alison had an affair. yancy slept with alison. alison, as in, tendo's wife. tendo who is now apparently having martial problems and has misplaced wedding ring. tendo, the man who is one of their best friends and might as well be their brother. yancy slept with their brother's wife.
that is so much worse than the thing with naomi ever was. and it makes raleigh so much more angry than yancy sleeping with the girl he was interested in but, yeah, would never have called. because tendo is practically family and you just don't do that. it goes against almost every unwritten rule there is.
before he really thinks too much about it, raleigh reacts to that anger and punches yancy square in the face. family is one thing you don't fuck with, even if you're family yourself. that's what they'd thought about dad wasn't it? same thing applies here. ]
[The thing about being so close with his brother, literally inside each other's heads at times, is that he sees that coming. Actually kind of wants it to happen because he feels so fucking guilty, he thinks he might actually throw up sometimes. He doesn't need Raleigh to tell him all of that, that he broke the bro code, that Tendo is basically family to them, that you don't fuck with that.
Except he did and he can't take it back now and he's not even sure that he wants to.
Yancy grabs him by the shirt, but doesn't swing back. Doesn't have the energy for that. He just shoves Raleigh back, and he can't really look his brother in the eye and when did telling Raleigh get to the point where it's almost as bad as facing Tendo.]
[ there's no way that punch took yancy by surprise. he let it connect. wanted it to hit. and that makes raleigh even more upset. it's part angry confusion ( why the fuck would you do something if you knew it was gonna make you like this? ) and part disappointment. it all mixes and conglomerates until he's nearly vibrating with how upset he is. ]
Yeah. Yeah, I'm done. [ he takes a few steps back, but before he leaves, he sends out a parting shot. ] You better figure out how the fuck you're going to make this up to him, man. You seriously fucked up.
[ and then he turns on his heel and walks away. ]
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAAAAAIN ( aka parte dos )
[ yancy disappears. or rather, he avoids his brother like the plague. at first, raleigh thinks good, great. let him go think about what he did elsewhere so i don't feel like punching him again. he's just so angry, and disappointed, and hurt in a weird way that he can barely see straight from all of it.
but dinner passes and raleigh starts to feel guilty for some of the things he's been thinking. not that yancy should've known better, or that he really fucked things up. no, those things are true. but the thoughts of wow, i don't know him at all, i can't believe he did this and the comparisons to their father aren't warranted. when he thinks about it, he can very easily picture how it might've happened. and, well. takes two to tango. yancy's not the only one at fault.
by the time it's nearing ten, he's pretty much going out of his mind with guilt and worry over yancy's mental state. he knows his brother, and he knows that the guilt is probably eating him alive. especially if it caused another wedge between them. so he throws on a coat and his boots and tromps out of the icebox until he comes across the right bar. he slides onto the stool next to yancy and gives him a pathetic puppy look. ]
Drinking yourself into and early grave probably isn't the best idea.
[Yancy doesn't really know when he made the decision to go drink his sorrows away literally, except that he just started walking once Raleigh turned his back on him and ended up in one of the bars near the Shatterdome and he claimed one of the stools and hasn't moved since. He's spent more time peeling the labels off his beer bottles than he has actually drinking the beer.
He has a split lip and the beer stings every time he takes a drink and he maybe deserves that.
Part of him wishes he was drunk. If he were drunk, he might go over there and hit on the blonde on the other side of the bar and the thought that being a flirt is what led him to being here in the first place, is maybe the only thing keeping him from doing that just that.
He almost ignores Raleigh all together. Even if he didn't see his brother come in, he felt it, like just proximity makes their heads connect, no pons necessary. Though he doesn't know some of the things that Raleigh's been thinking about him and that's probably a good thing. He already feels like shit, a comparison to their deadbeat dad is just going to make it worse because it's true in a way and he always promised himself he wasn't going to be like Dad. Wasn't going to let his family down like Dad did.
Yancy doesn't look at Raleigh though, just keeps on picking at the label on his beer bottle.]
[ that's probably not the best way to make peace with yancy, but it needs to be said. he's not going to let a bad mood shove him away. especially not after he's been thinking horrible things all day. ]
Look, I'm sorry I made this worse for you. [ he's not sorry about the split lip. yancy kind of deserved that. but he does feel terrible that he pretty much just fed into the guilt trip that was already going strong.
the puppy eyes get cranked up a notch and raleigh gently nudges yancy's shoulder with his own. ] Just come back to the 'Dome with me. I hate seeing you like this, but it's easier to take back home.
You didn't make it worse--and quit looking at me like that. Goddamnit.
[His brother is actually a dog. He's actually part sad puppy and it's cute sometimes but now it's just annoying.
He doesn't want Raleigh apologizing to him and it's really not like Raleigh made him feel any guiltier over all, because it's actually not possible for him to be any more guilty about this. He's maxed out, so if any of the guilt over Alison and Tendo lessens, he's sure that some for Raleigh and letting the kid down will creep in there.]
[ raleigh tilts his head to the side and gives yancy a confused look. ( he is an actual puppy. ) it's not like he doesn't get why yancy would want to steer clear of tendo. he totally does. but it's not really... feasible. ]
So... what? Were you going to try and stay in a motel for however long he and Alison are separated? I don't think you've got the money for that.
[What was Raleigh doing anyway? First he punches him and walks off and now he's what? Trying to make him feel better and that actually makes Yancy want to laugh into his beer because fuck. Of course that's what Raleigh is doing and he doesn't deserve that.]
[ he's expecting that comment to not go over well, given the state he's worked himself into. but it's a reminder that's probably sorely needed. yancy's not the only one at fault here and shouldn't be acting like he is. ]
[Yeah that seems to snap something in his head and he reaches out to grab Raleigh by the collar of his coat and shake him because don't... fucking talk about Alison. Yeah, obviously she had a pretty equal part in this but he doesn't want to blame her. It feels like pointing fingers and she's not his scapegoat.]
[ raleigh doesn't react when he's shaken. he just stares at yancy calmly, one hand come up to wave the bartender away 'cause he's got this. yance isn't going to hurt him. ]
[Yancy's shaking his head and shaking Raleigh again as his answer, because no shit he hasn't apologized. Raleigh was there the entire time that he and Tendo have been in the same room at all day, much less within like a hundred feet of each other. He exhales slowly and lets go of his brother's coat but only so he can reach for his beer.]
I didn't even know he knew until I saw the ring off today.
Then you don't know for sure he's never gonna forgive you.
[ raleigh's not willing to put money on it either way, but this isn't about what he thinks. this is about getting yancy in a state of mind where he can drag him back to the 'dome and hopefully keep him together enough for him to function until things with tendo even out a bit. one way or another. ]
[He's not going back to the Shatterdome just to make Raleigh more comfortable. He's fine right here. He's got his stool and his beer and he promises to keep it in his pants or whatever.]
You're not my keeper, Raleigh. You don't need to keep an eye on me.
[And even if Raleigh was his keeper, he's clearly been doing a shitty job because Yancy betrayed their best friend and slept with his wife. So maybe he's not the best person for the job and maybe Yancy has had too much to drink after all.]
Yancy finishes off his bottle without actually having peeled the entire label off yet and signals for another. Apparently talking about it instead of sitting there and brooding about it speeds up his desire to drink.]
Uh-huh. I'm sure that's what you said the first time you thought about getting into Alison's pants too.
[ if yancy was having any doubts about how angry raleigh really is about all this, that should clear them up. he may feel bad for the dad thoughts, but he still thinks of this as a huge betrayal. and he can't take that lightly, not even for yancy. ]
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[He likes to call people on their shit but hates it when that gets turned back on him. So he half sullenly glares back at his brother, because could he just fucking drop something for once in his life.]
Let it go.
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That's even more reason to have it out. What if a kaiju attacks and you're still upset?
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[Only-- yeah, that would not work out well. The affair with Naomi taught them that, that they can't harbor secrets and hope it won't come out in the Drift because it almost always will just because of the sheer fact that he hopes it won't. Like determinedly not thinking about it makes him think about it and that shows it to Raleigh and just--fuck.
Yancy sighs and shakes his head a little.]
Alison and I had an affair.
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yancy and alison had an affair. yancy slept with alison. alison, as in, tendo's wife. tendo who is now apparently having martial problems and has misplaced wedding ring. tendo, the man who is one of their best friends and might as well be their brother. yancy slept with their brother's wife.
that is so much worse than the thing with naomi ever was. and it makes raleigh so much more angry than yancy sleeping with the girl he was interested in but, yeah, would never have called. because tendo is practically family and you just don't do that. it goes against almost every unwritten rule there is.
before he really thinks too much about it, raleigh reacts to that anger and punches yancy square in the face. family is one thing you don't fuck with, even if you're family yourself. that's what they'd thought about dad wasn't it? same thing applies here. ]
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Except he did and he can't take it back now and he's not even sure that he wants to.
Yancy grabs him by the shirt, but doesn't swing back. Doesn't have the energy for that. He just shoves Raleigh back, and he can't really look his brother in the eye and when did telling Raleigh get to the point where it's almost as bad as facing Tendo.]
Are you fucking done?
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Yeah. Yeah, I'm done. [ he takes a few steps back, but before he leaves, he sends out a parting shot. ] You better figure out how the fuck you're going to make this up to him, man. You seriously fucked up.
[ and then he turns on his heel and walks away. ]
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but dinner passes and raleigh starts to feel guilty for some of the things he's been thinking. not that yancy should've known better, or that he really fucked things up. no, those things are true. but the thoughts of wow, i don't know him at all, i can't believe he did this and the comparisons to their father aren't warranted. when he thinks about it, he can very easily picture how it might've happened. and, well. takes two to tango. yancy's not the only one at fault.
by the time it's nearing ten, he's pretty much going out of his mind with guilt and worry over yancy's mental state. he knows his brother, and he knows that the guilt is probably eating him alive. especially if it caused another wedge between them. so he throws on a coat and his boots and tromps out of the icebox until he comes across the right bar. he slides onto the stool next to yancy and gives him a pathetic puppy look. ]
Drinking yourself into and early grave probably isn't the best idea.
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He has a split lip and the beer stings every time he takes a drink and he maybe deserves that.
Part of him wishes he was drunk. If he were drunk, he might go over there and hit on the blonde on the other side of the bar and the thought that being a flirt is what led him to being here in the first place, is maybe the only thing keeping him from doing that just that.
He almost ignores Raleigh all together. Even if he didn't see his brother come in, he felt it, like just proximity makes their heads connect, no pons necessary. Though he doesn't know some of the things that Raleigh's been thinking about him and that's probably a good thing. He already feels like shit, a comparison to their deadbeat dad is just going to make it worse because it's true in a way and he always promised himself he wasn't going to be like Dad. Wasn't going to let his family down like Dad did.
Yancy doesn't look at Raleigh though, just keeps on picking at the label on his beer bottle.]
I am really not in the mood, kid.
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[ that's probably not the best way to make peace with yancy, but it needs to be said. he's not going to let a bad mood shove him away. especially not after he's been thinking horrible things all day. ]
Look, I'm sorry I made this worse for you. [ he's not sorry about the split lip. yancy kind of deserved that. but he does feel terrible that he pretty much just fed into the guilt trip that was already going strong.
the puppy eyes get cranked up a notch and raleigh gently nudges yancy's shoulder with his own. ] Just come back to the 'Dome with me. I hate seeing you like this, but it's easier to take back home.
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[His brother is actually a dog. He's actually part sad puppy and it's cute sometimes but now it's just annoying.
He doesn't want Raleigh apologizing to him and it's really not like Raleigh made him feel any guiltier over all, because it's actually not possible for him to be any more guilty about this. He's maxed out, so if any of the guilt over Alison and Tendo lessens, he's sure that some for Raleigh and letting the kid down will creep in there.]
Tendo's staying at the 'Dome now.
[And he can't be under the same roof apparently.]
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So... what? Were you going to try and stay in a motel for however long he and Alison are separated? I don't think you've got the money for that.
[ plus, they're on call. ]
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[What was Raleigh doing anyway? First he punches him and walks off and now he's what? Trying to make him feel better and that actually makes Yancy want to laugh into his beer because fuck. Of course that's what Raleigh is doing and he doesn't deserve that.]
What the fuck is wrong with me?
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[ he's expecting that comment to not go over well, given the state he's worked himself into. but it's a reminder that's probably sorely needed. yancy's not the only one at fault here and shouldn't be acting like he is. ]
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He's never going to forgive me.
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Have you actually apologized?
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I didn't even know he knew until I saw the ring off today.
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[ raleigh's not willing to put money on it either way, but this isn't about what he thinks. this is about getting yancy in a state of mind where he can drag him back to the 'dome and hopefully keep him together enough for him to function until things with tendo even out a bit. one way or another. ]
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[He's not going back to the Shatterdome just to make Raleigh more comfortable. He's fine right here. He's got his stool and his beer and he promises to keep it in his pants or whatever.]
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And why can't you do that somewhere it's easier to keep an eye on you?
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[And even if Raleigh was his keeper, he's clearly been doing a shitty job because Yancy betrayed their best friend and slept with his wife. So maybe he's not the best person for the job and maybe Yancy has had too much to drink after all.]
Aren't you pissed anyway?
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[ he pauses long enough to get a glass of water from the bartender, because apparently he's going to be here a while. ]
But I'm your brother, and that means looking out for you while you're clearly fucked in the head and a little drunk.
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Yancy finishes off his bottle without actually having peeled the entire label off yet and signals for another. Apparently talking about it instead of sitting there and brooding about it speeds up his desire to drink.]
I'm fine. I'm not going to do anything.
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Uh-huh. I'm sure that's what you said the first time you thought about getting into Alison's pants too.
[ if yancy was having any doubts about how angry raleigh really is about all this, that should clear them up. he may feel bad for the dad thoughts, but he still thinks of this as a huge betrayal. and he can't take that lightly, not even for yancy. ]
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