[No, he doesn't really want to show Raleigh it but he understands that he has to, if this is going to work, if they're ever going to make it back towards normal. It can't just be Yancy protecting his little brother from all the bad things in the world anymore, because newsflash: Raleigh's been through hell.
Yancy tightens his grip on Raleigh for a second, taking a breath and then plunging in--
how'd your date with alison go-- holy shit it's cold why it is so cold why am i wearing this fucking thing oh god i'm going to be sick--beep beep beep-- doctor i think we need you in here-- where are you from? what's your name? it's okay, you can talk to me i'm john smith and i'm a fisherman from fairbanks-- raleigh raleigh raleigh did you survive holy shit you did how did you get our girl back on your own-- you haven't been sleeping yeah so?-- can't go to raleigh, don't even know where to find him-- shit he's just like dad, no he's worse than dad because he promised he'd never leave but here he is turning the other way-- takes up fishing because he actually doesn't have a single clue of what else to do-- a televised kaiju attack has him holing up in the bathroom, his head between his knees and his hands over his ears-- don't you have any family john? or friends no i don't-- watching a jaeger fall on tv and he throws up his lunch and his dinner-- and another and another like dominoes and he breaks his tv one night to make it stop-- then pitfall, then watching from the air as raleigh and mako cling to each other-- what's changed now, he's not jealous, he's scared and ashamed but he's buying a ticket to Hong Kong anyway
They're just in the headspace but he's still gripping Raleigh's hand enough to bruise.]
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Yancy tightens his grip on Raleigh for a second, taking a breath and then plunging in--
how'd your date with alison go-- holy shit it's cold why it is so cold why am i wearing this fucking thing oh god i'm going to be sick--beep beep beep-- doctor i think we need you in here-- where are you from? what's your name? it's okay, you can talk to me i'm john smith and i'm a fisherman from fairbanks-- raleigh raleigh raleigh did you survive holy shit you did how did you get our girl back on your own-- you haven't been sleeping yeah so?-- can't go to raleigh, don't even know where to find him-- shit he's just like dad, no he's worse than dad because he promised he'd never leave but here he is turning the other way-- takes up fishing because he actually doesn't have a single clue of what else to do-- a televised kaiju attack has him holing up in the bathroom, his head between his knees and his hands over his ears-- don't you have any family john? or friends no i don't-- watching a jaeger fall on tv and he throws up his lunch and his dinner-- and another and another like dominoes and he breaks his tv one night to make it stop-- then pitfall, then watching from the air as raleigh and mako cling to each other-- what's changed now, he's not jealous, he's scared and ashamed but he's buying a ticket to Hong Kong anyway
They're just in the headspace but he's still gripping Raleigh's hand enough to bruise.]