[ even though his heart is hurting, even though today is one of the rare days where the grief seems all-consuming, raleigh smiles. it's a soft, small smile. barely an upturn of the corners of his lips. but it's there as he squeezes naomi's hands. ]
How did I get so lucky with you?
[ it's an honest question. there are days where he looks at her and yancy and thinks, how could i ever ask for anything more? life is pretty great for him most of the time. thinking of that lets him lean in to kiss naomi softly and then pull her into his chest. he's not quite ready for their girl to come back, since his hands are still shaking and he still feels like the tide is going to pull him under if he's not careful. but he's got naomi to hold onto and that's makes all the difference. ]
I just need a little time. [ to pull himself together a little. to accept the fact that he's still allowed to grieve for the loss all these years later. then maybe he'll be able to talk to her. as he is right now, he doesn't quite feel like he can. and even if he could, he wouldn't know where to start. ]
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How did I get so lucky with you?
[ it's an honest question. there are days where he looks at her and yancy and thinks, how could i ever ask for anything more? life is pretty great for him most of the time. thinking of that lets him lean in to kiss naomi softly and then pull her into his chest. he's not quite ready for their girl to come back, since his hands are still shaking and he still feels like the tide is going to pull him under if he's not careful. but he's got naomi to hold onto and that's makes all the difference. ]
I just need a little time. [ to pull himself together a little. to accept the fact that he's still allowed to grieve for the loss all these years later. then maybe he'll be able to talk to her. as he is right now, he doesn't quite feel like he can. and even if he could, he wouldn't know where to start. ]